Speaking of sex - oh we weren't?

I'm better now! I know what my problem was... non-committment! She was going to too many different directions at once...besides having a husband! I'm finished with her now.. for months.

I have a new love and she's not torn in a hundred directions so I feel more secure with our relationship. And she is "there" when she is with me!

I only hope she tells me what she is feeling and what she needs and wants - otherwise how can I tell. She cannot assume anything. No one should "assume" their partner knows what they want!

Hell, half the time, I don't know which end is up! I only hope I can still afloat..because looking for a job is going to get harder and harder as time goes on.

Better cut back on spending...and eating out.. and eating..

Need to lose weight anyway!

Think I'll pop some popcorn! But first I'm walking to the gym and going to swim.

memories?

Hm, I remember when I had a little money! What is with this market? It seems this government better get it together or we are going to drown in my deregulation errors made by these republicans. And yes Greenspan had to know! No wonder he bailed.

And then we got Wall Street hero Paulson filled with conflict of interest struggles I am sure! "Let's see, how can I help them and mostly help me too?"

They are not really interested in helping us.. but they better. No spending power - no eocnomy! Simple as that!

Creepy

The other day I suddenly remembered...mother's telling their daughters to keep their legs together. Assholes! In my mind at the time and even now it takes on a negative, crushing, self-esteem destructive feeling. Even some women are creeping! What did having shorts on do something to them - they didn't like? Did they think men would be aroused? It's all creepy! People are sick! Adults - yeah right!

Too many sickos out there! Not only men! Although, I'm more likely to guess that more men are molesters.

Life is creepy! Too much evil and greed hidden behind religious cloaks, and gathers. I don't trust religion. Never did, even as a kid! I could see through there bullshit even then. What a bounch of greedy, self-serving bastards.